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I Get It

It has taken me a while, but now I get it.

Tears are streaming down my face but I’m not sad, or hurt, or upset. I’m so overwhelmed and uplifted that emotion has taken over, in a good way.

For some time now, I have been dealing with all manner of change, stress, grief, expectation (some mine, some that belongs to others), and fear. Not a great combination to propel me to happiness, joy, success and fulfillment.

The fear has been the most influential in my recent journey. I just couldn’t figure out what it was all about? What do I fear? Is it fear of failure? No. Fear of success, then? No. Fear of change? An emphatic NO, given that I am a strong proponent of change. I couldn’t figure it out. I didn’t get it.

Then, this evening, I finally watched “The Best Exotic Marigold Hotel”.

It’s a phenomenal movie that I recommend highly. I’ve been meaning to watch it for some time. Many of my friends have been giving it rave reviews, and yet it took me until tonight to watch it. And it turned out to be less of a watching experience than one in which I watched and learned. It’s so true what they say: “When the student is ready, the teacher appears.”

Tonight I realized what it is I fear. The resonance of the realization was so strong, I felt its force as I sat there and heard the following words:

    “ All we know about the future is that it will be different.
    But perhaps what we fear is that it will be the same.”

There it is.

I get it now.

And now that I know what it is I fear, I have greater clarity of what I must do to conquer the fear, to get on with making my life want I want it to be, and find the joy that is waiting to be found.

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Leap and the Net Will Appear

Trust.

It’s a huge thing. Or is it?

From a young age, we naturally trust our caregivers, trust that we’ll get what we need, trust that if we speak up we’ll be heard, and trust that we can do anything.

Where does that trust get lost along the way? For some, it never does. Those are the people I look to for inspiration. They’re the ones who know in their gut that they can leap and the net will appear.

I recently read a novel, Belong to Me, by Marisa de los Santos. A memory described by one of her characters has awoken a desire in me to once again trust in the universe, trust in my talents and trust that I’m on the right track by taking a leap of faith:

“I found myself remembering Toby cliff diving on a family vacation to California, running full tilt, straight for the edge and over, flinging his body into nothingness with a whoop of exaltation. At the time, I’d thought it was pure, arrogant recklessness, the dumbest kind of dumb fun. But what if it was something more? What if cliff diving wasn’t as much about recklessness as trust, trust in the air to hold you and the water to cushion your fall? Belief in a benevolent universe. Kierkegaardian theology in action. Maybe, just maybe, it was Toby’s version of a leap of faith.”

What would happen if you opened yourself up to trust and took a leap of faith?

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Lost and Found

I found this list of rules I developed in a file that I clearly haven’t opened for some time. The page is dated 1997. That shocked me. Looks like I’ve had these tidbits of wisdom for 14 years without realizing it.

Over the past few years, I’ve continuously gone back to the drawing board to ask questions about myself, to figure out what’s important, to know my values and how I want to live my life. I would’ve saved so much time and angst if I’d posted these rules in 1997 and referred to them daily.

The good news is two-fold:
1. Now that I’ve found The Rules again, I’m keeping them front and centre for reference as I move forward, and
2. It’s worth doing a decluttering, archeological dig in your own home – I’m motivated to keep purging the rest of my files to see what other gems I can uncover!

Stay tuned…

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Aha!

Inspiration and “aha moments” often come from unexpected sources.

My latest source was a Chuck Lorre vanity card at the tail end of an episode of Big Bang Theory I caught on Comedy Network last night as I was flipping through the channels with no destination in mind.

Here’s what Chuck had to say:
“We tell ourselves stories. We weave together different plot lines, wondering if the outcome of the story might be different were we to have done or said something other than what we had done or said, all the while knowing that the various alternative outcomes are just more stories — fictions meant to distract us from what’s actually happening. And so we pause from weaving and commence breathing, gently and non-judgmentally saying hello to what is.”

As I make my way through my current life transition, this speaks volumes to me. You see, I’m an expert ruminator. I’ll play endless edited video loops in my mind to try to figure things out, to double-check decisions made in the past, to imagine what might have been. Fiction. I see it now.

After reading countless self-help books, processing what the experts say about living in the now, and trying not to let my past define my future, here comes a simple vanity card that gave me not only an “aha moment”, but also clarity about what is, a sense of release from the past, and a way out of the cave.

Thank you, Chuck.

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Making the Most of Valuable Time


One day last week I noticed a small sign on the door of my trainer’s studio. I’m sure it had been there for a while, but, as always, we don’t see things until we’re ready to see them.

The immediate significance for me was related to physical fitness and training — the original intent of the sign. (And great sub-text to expand on Nike’s now infamous “just do it!” mantra.) It hit me that I waste time thinking about working out, convincing myself to work out, and finally conceding that I need to work out. Then I just do it. Imagine the time I could saved by just working out in the first place. It HAS to be done (in my case) and I’ll end up doing it regardless, so why not “just do it”? Much less painful, no? (I’ve decreased my thinking and deliberation time from a day, to an hour, to about ten minutes.)

The penny dropped when I was on the treadmill that day — I saw all the other applications this sign has in my life. I’m not talking about your run-of-the-mill procrastination. I’m talking about inevitable things we need to do that we could be spending time doing instead of thinking about not doing them. All the things that don’t get done while we’re thinking about not doing something else. Things like cleaning, returning phone calls, booking appointments, calling service providers about issues we have with cable TV or Internet, cooking dinner, shopping for presents, cleaning out closets, and the very timely and relevant assembling of receipts to celebrate income tax filing season!

We have enough constraints on our time these days. And time spent thinking about doing something is time spent not doing that very thing that could bring you relief, satisfaction or pure joy.

Go on. Get out of your head and into your body. Do it. You’ll be glad you did!

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